HAHA. . .FUNNY ME!

HAHA! I'm laughing at myself right now! How stupid am I?? I mean to LIKE/LOVE the same guy! HAHA! Now I just ended up all torn up,AGAIN! HAHA! Going EMO! Can't help it SORRY! HAHA! It's pointless! HAHA! I want to cry! HAHA! but I just can't right now! HAHA! And I thought this year was that year! HAHA! but I was wrong as always! HAHA! I laugh at myself! HAHA! stupid! stupid! HAHA! HAHA! I feel so so so TORN, HURT, DISAPPOINTED and STUPID! UMASA pa ako! It was POINTLESS! HAHA!

SMILE for the effin' CAMERA. . . HAHA!

Cough. . .

Every time I cough I remember being a little kid. . .I don't know why but I just do. . .It's weird but actually nice. . .I like it except the whole phlegm sticking in your lungs part. . .

I can remember how my mom would get hysterical when I would get a cough when I was little(and she still does). . .How I would swallow the phlegm when ever it goes up my mouth. . .and my mom would scold me for that. . .haha. . .I didn't like it, being a kid. . .pressure was always on me and how most of the stuff I believed in just got swiped away. . .but now I just want to be a kid. . .to run away from everything. . .I want to go back and change everything. . .I want to go back and stay innocent. . .I want to go back and stay that way. . .

But I can't. . .all I can do now is just cough and remember how things were. . .

Destined to be in Harmony. . .

It's something that Lou-anne said this afternoon and it's catchy! haha. . ."sawsaw" aku han practice nera Renzdl for the grand rally and all that. . .Past was w/ us. . .Yap he was. . . It wasn't actually that awkward as what I experienced last time. . .I don't know about him but I minded my own business. . .laughed at his jokes if necessary. . .haha. . .and all the eye contacts along the way. . .weird yet in a fun way. . .I just got thrilled seeing my classmates play seriously for the first time. . .It was so cool. . . :) after that I went to Niña's place. . .we had a practice w/ our A.P. thing. . . then stayed to take some pictures and talked. . .

Me:he's place is just a few blocks from mine. . .I could just walk there. . .

Lou-anne: You 2 are destined to be in harmony. . .

:)

LOVE. . .

This day has to be one of the weirdest days ever. . . I mean it's all about well people telling how they really feel. . .It's so so mushy. . .haha. . . It's happy yet sad at the same time. . .People turning down people. . .People accepting people. . .I don't actually get it. . .How they wait for so long and then get rejected and still try. . .and if they do get accepted there just going to, well break up. . .Were still in high school it's just all fun and games nothing more. . .It's not yet real nor true, it's all the same. . .But still who knows right. . .I'm just a kid. . .and even grown ups make mistakes like little kids. . .

But Love can wait. . .Why do we have to rush things??

When Bordem Strikes!

I'm bored today...It's a Monday and we have no classes... :) it's nice actually but we have nothing to do. . .I called up Luwan as soon as I woke up and told her I want to go out. . .She too wants to go somewhere too. . .so we planned to go somewhere later. . .

We don't know where to go!! we shall go where ever our heart takes us!! haha. . . :)

Missin' you already!

haha. . . :D we just had a chat and I already miss him. . .hahaha... xD I missed him and we actually got a chance to chat but he sudenly signed out. . . buhu. . .but it's ok . . . :D

Just missed him alot. . . :D

I have saved myself...

The whole endless anger thing is now a thing of the past...I saved myself from Roxy's tempting hand of anger...Whew! I stood my ground... I'm not angry or anything at SHE... SHE said she doesn't like him...well for me she's lying. . .haha...and I said I ain't angry at her but seriously I'm not. . .I'm just telling you what I think. . .But the point is I'm SAVED!haha...the whole guilty feeling is gone...

But right now I don't know who I "fancy"(uuuu,big word...hahaha)...I think I like PAST again not sure though...I miss him...we haven't talked in ages. . .I MISS HIM!!! xD

The Aftermath

It's the first day after the exams...by the way sorry about the last post just felt the urge to do so. . . pis didn't mean to hurt anyone... anyhow. . . The aftermath of exams. . .dark circles under your eyes and fatigue from all the studying... we didn't actually had the time to relax and unwind...it's one project to another it's crazy...I also lost 25 php TT_TT. . .lost it in a bet w/ Charles... I don't even know why I said yes to that bet...must be because of the fatigue and all that... Every one's still busy and still sleepy. . .and by the way I have to bare Charles' boasting and talking about how smart he is that I lost and he won... I'll estimate it to well a week or 2. . .who knows when he'll stop...

I still have to pay him tomorrow. . .TT_TT good thing it's not 50...whew!