Trying to Forget and Run Away

I've been trying to avoid him these past few days. . .I didn't make contact for a few days already. . .I'm trying to forget about him and just drift away from him as much as possible. . .I just want to make a big hole between us, to make a big rip. . .to forget everything, to forget the feeling, to forget the closeness, and to forget him. . .

It was a sudden decision I made. . .just thought of it. . .maybe it's because I know that he has someone already. . .someone he really loves. . .and I'm happy for him and I just hope that well she's it. . . :)

I lost all hope last Wednesday. . . I loosened my grip and accepted the truth. . .I can't do anything now. . .this is the end. . .

You might think I'm over reacting. . .You might think my smiles are fake. . .Actually I am over reacting. . .It's just that. . . . . .I really liked him(I might even loved him). . .and I really hoped something might happen like those romantic movies. . .well turns out :) I was wrong. . .
I'm not faking my smiles. . .I really happy for him. . .I'm not being a martyr or anything I just accepted it as a whole. . .and his new someone is a friend of mine. . . sort of. . . :) and there a lot of boys out there who are well. . .better than him. . . :)

On to the Next Chapter! :)