oooohh... :(

you're sweet and nice and caring and loving and have a way to make me feel nice about myself but....i'm sorry. :(

i'm not in-love with you.

how i wish i was.

it'll save me all the pain.

but no, i'm sorry.

if only i was in-love with you.

maybe things would have been better.

but i see you as a brother, a very protective and caring brother.

make me happy.anyone?

glee made me feel better today. :)

i just feel like total shit today.really. :|

it's worse than before.

feels like my hearts being crushed.

i always thought his mom was supportive about us. :(

but then apparently she's not. :(

she's making him choose. :(

i don't want that. :(

i'm breaking into tiny pieces. :(

well everything's going down the drain.

this is shitty.

:(

i'm not a martyr i'm just not a cheater.

now matter which way you look at it and no matter how hard you try or how many times you ask me nothing's gonna happen.

you're a nice guy but you're just not for me.

we're friends, it's cool, and i'd like to leave it like that.

anywho.doubts.

i hate doubting. :|

is it true?

is being busy just an excuse?

are you supposed to have time no matter how busy you get?

am i being played?

the questions are killing me.

we need to talk. :|

two people have made that point now.and well yeah, they have a huge point.

today was FAR!

we wore casuals. :)

no classes in our minors, except for ReEd. :P

no graphics!wee! :>

but sir gave us a bring home plate.boooo. :P

hanged out at the other classroom.

bothering gia and arjay.

helping them from time to time. :D

and panicking when their teacher gets there. :))

anna made me believe that ash and misty, from pokemon, got together in the end. :))

i really believed it. she was like: "did you know ash and misty got together in the end?" i went: "really?!" she answered: "...no not really." hahahahahaha. :)))))

from 2-6 i just sat between arjay and gia and looked at them do their plates. :))

i find their friend sam funny and cool. :))

he kept on making fun of arjay. XD they were bitching about each other.hahaha.

watched the performance art performers.it was so cool and weird.but still awesome. :)

watched the fashion show. :D

went to rosdale, waited for my uncle.arjay waited with me.

my uncle arrived around 9.

came home and had dinner at 10. :D

community service for cwts tomorrow.boooo! :/

FAR tomorrow!....i mean later. :P

we can wear casuals. :D

dinner at ching palace earlier.

dinner at lighhouse tomorrow. :))

i just want us to be tight friends.that's all.now that i think about it i don't really think that i like like him.

but you,i can't forget you.never.even just the thought of you makes my chest all happy. :)

and hence i miss you. :(

i got a hot oil treatment today.

my hair smells like rubbing alcohol. :))

my aunt who came home from the states gave me an ipod shuffle. :)

it's so small and it looks like a flash disk. :))

stupid chad and his stupid teasing.

i hanged out with arjay last saturday at starbucks.we just stayed there and talked from 2-5.it was fun. :D

chad saw us hence the teasing.little bitch. :| :)))

it's going to be a month now since we last talked. :|
fuck...

i feel accomplished and shit right now.

accomplished because i finished my sculpture for design tomorrow!

and i must say it actually looks good. :D

started it around 9 something and finished around 12.

now all i need to do is bake the freakin' thing, which i will do tomorrow morning. :D

shit because that freakin' plate just made me dead tired.

i'm so tired i wanna stab someone. :))

i was supposed to have p.e. today.buuuuut. :D

i didn't have my p.e. uniform because they forgot to wash it.sooooo.i didn't go. :P

i sat-in cj's english.her teacher was our teacher last semester so it was alright.

i was shocked to know greg, joyce's friend, knows me. O.O

sammy put me in charge of 'tax' collecting for our org. :D

me like collecting money. :))

today.

i was shaken.

i found out that Biboy had passed.

it was so sudden.

lou-anne told me, he drowned.

i can't believe it.

it was just so fast.

he was an awesome writer.

he could have had a brighter future ahead of him.

but God had other plans.

he's with our beloved Father now,enjoying His presence.

you did good biboy. :)