a verbal failure

it's 1.21 am and i didn't finish studying my oral defense in philo yet and i didn't study histo at all.over all i think i'm going to be screwed later.oh well.

why do i get pissed when he puts down the phone? i mean i should be happy that he talks to me.i shouldn't be demanding,i don't want to but i still end up demanding. :| i don't want him to get pissed at me sooner or later.he's right,i should be scared that he might get angry at me in the long run.i shouldn't act like this.i need an intervention! >.<

i hope our philo project goes fine.

i hope he won't get sick of me.

i hope i can be nicer to him.

i hope i don't freak out.

i hope i could be a better person.

his friend texted me the other day using his phone. :) his friend said nice things about him and what i presumed to be bro-love. :)) it translated to: he's an awesome guy and don't you dare hurt him. :))

MUUUUU....cow. :D we're cows. :))

i have a cold and i'm guessing that this will get worse when i wake up later. :|

cj asked me if i talked bad stuff about her.i said yes i did.i was being honest.she asked why too.i told her that she was selfish sometimes and not considerate too.we patched that up. :)

i need to get some sleep now. :)